Magical Feeling

Thursday, March 06, 2008

I made a rare and valuable discovery today. Actually, I made plenty, but I can't blog for too long. I'm supposed to be studying my Math for the first part of the Periodical exam tomorrow.

Anyway...

1. I ~~like~~ love being a child, and nothing can change the way I am. I remember when Tito Aman was here in the country scolding me because I wasn't independent enough, and that I moved like a child. But I know myself better than he does. I make important decisions everyday in my life, decisions to act and to be. I think rationally and reasonably. I don't think selfishly. Most of all, I remember to make decisions that though aren't wise to people are favorable in the eyes of the Lord. And I have innocence, not naivete, somewhere left inside of me, and that I'm blessed to still have it, when everyone around is spinning out of control because they pretend of being able to do things they can't and shouldn't.

2. There is a beautiful dignity and strength of character when you know where you stand. We were watching Schindler's List, and there were some parts that my classmates always took the wrong way. The nude scenes, the mind-numbing reality of life, its fragility and value. They snickered and didn't pay attention in all the wrong places. But I know that life shouldn't be sneered at like that. And though I might be the only one tearing up at that movie, at least I know I'm not a callused jaded bitch who sneers at life.

3. Everyone deserves a chance to be wonderful. Not just about love, but everyone around you; friends, classmates, teachers, parents, everyone. We're tired of lies and fakers, but there are people who truly love. Who truly care.

4. Love will come. Maybe not today. But I 100% promise that whoever you are, you are loved; you're just too damn stupid realize that you are loved if you think otherwise. Above any person in this world, you are loved by a great God. Not everything ends in a heartbreak, even though the pain seems to go on forever and ever. You just think to yourself that there will be a day that will come that all the suffering is a distant memory, and you'll be looking back on this day as past. And the day that you do, it's most rewarding.

5. Time is too short. When the days are numbered, and when nothing seems to stop, you have to remember to stop worrying about how to live, and actually just live. Even if you find yourself able to live one day at a time, be thankful you are able to live at all. Take life as it is. Life is destroyed when it is defined because we look outside of it, and not become part of it, therefore we miss all the wonderful things it will offer.

...that's it. ;p