YM Stat: That's because I cry when I'm pissed.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

And I am totally, totally pissed off.

So, like a little girl running home to tell her momma, here's how it went:

DVBS Day 2. Kezia didn't call the night before to confirm if Nikki would be able to fetch the kids, but they were, which is good thing, because I was still pretty furious about making the kids wait for 2 hours to get home, and because I totally thought it only seemed that the consequences, if they weren't fetched, were completely off my hands.

The second day, I believe, went good. I know most of my students now, and they can memorize long verses and we have more crayons!!! Finally. They learned the songs pretty fast, and didn't squirm too much around story times. I dealt with 4 kids, one of which wouldn't listen, really, so 3 got saved (or more like confirmed, because according to Sammi, they went forward yesterday, too.). And then here comes the bad part:

Nikki can't take the kids back home, so Kezia told me we had to bring them home in a jeep. I distinctly remember the "we". This was no problem for me. This is what pissed me off, though. Instead of helping assemble the 13 noisy kids and helping find a jeep to "pakyaw", she just stood around there, flirting around her crush, and again, tossing all responsibility to me.

I couldn't get the kids on my own. I asked Friend and Russell to help me watch over the kids while I tried to find the others, but they didn't know either one of them so they wouldn't listen. I yelled to her to help me about a dozen times, then when I couldn't take it, I figured we'd all just settle down if I found something we could ride on. I went out and asked for help to get a jeep, but it was like whatever I said would just enter one ear, trigger some consciousness into her brain, and come out again and just see Mark (Toto). More furious than ever, I crossed the road and instead asked Sir Abdul to help me find a jeep. When we got one, I got the kids to cross safely over, and had them all ride, and stay in the jeep. I went back to get my things, and motioned for Kezia to come because I had them all in the jeep and getting them home, all without her help. Thank God for His. She just looked at me and said "Ihahatid mo na sila?" Utterly possessed by anger, I walked out, took the kids home. Then turns out I misheard the driver; I offered P100, and I thought he said P50, when in fact, he said P150. Absolutely helpless, I asked him to drive us home and then I'd pay him whatever it cost us to send the kids home, plus the way from my house back to his route. He just took the P100, thankfully. When I handed the P100 I knew that I might not have enough on me to get home. I peeked in the wallet after he left and only had P5 left. The minimum fare for students, as we know, is P6. I almost considered walking home when I resolved to take a cab and get the money to pay them when I get home. I stood in the blinding, burning sun, getting a cab, and finally got one after a few scorching minutes. It cost me around P150 anyway, because I paid P45 for the cab. Mama and Papa were in the kubo with the drivers having lunch, and I wanted to blurt out everything to them, but I knew it wouldn't look very good to the drivers that their manager's daughter have a breakdown in front of them, so I skipped lunch. They both knew something was wrong, so right after eating Mama came, and I howled out everything. I think she's going to tell Maam Elsie to ask for help, because we obviously need some and Papa would throw a fit just trying to explain it. I don't want to talk about it, because it would come out like a therapy case and all I want is for the kids to have a secure service throughout DVBS.

I looked and felt stupid standing there, asking her a million times each to help me get the kids together, to help me get a jeep, to help me fetch them, and I can't take talking to her just now. This is outrageous, and...AND...oh heck, I need some happy food, aka noodles. I mean, I was sweltering under pressure and worry about getting the kids home, and she just sat pretty there, trying to get her crush to come to paintball. Oh, I am so close to swearing, I swear.

>:Z