Can't say.

Tuesday, June 03, 2008

Everyone's having their end of summer posts, a dozen threats of blog hiatuses*, before school to-dos, lists of their summer I DIDs.

Well, that's what strikes me the most.

Everyone can just sit down and line up everything they did this summer.

I can't say I can.

In the gears of my heart, I know that's where I'll find that list. The exact place, where the twists and turns happen, where I am set in motion to which direction. I've heard, learned, realized, pained, joyed, loved, hated, forgiven, resolved. I know I've changed and grown in my heart in so many ways.

In the back of my head, another lists forms. There have been things I've done that I know I am proud of. Small things, big things. There also things I forgot and dismissed to do, for some I am proud, and for others, ashamed. They are things I keep for myself and for God, because no one else can see what happens when my heart and His guidance lead me to my decisions.

And behind my eyes, there comes another. Where my future starts to map out. My Lord is at the helm, the captain of my way. I am at the wheels, from where I can see Him and follow His leading. Sometimes, I think I can't see Him, and the storms howl around me, and the wheel spins out of control. But it is in that brief loss that He comes from where He stands and takes my burdens, and steers me to where the lines in His map tell.

These things, too profound for words, to which lists are trivial, will be secrets mine for the keeping.

And summer, I guess, will never end. Because this summer, I've found a Sunshine that has walked me through and left me stronger at the end. And this Summer Sunshine, brighter than I can imagine, is trapped in my heart to stay forever.






*Owwwwwww, crap everyone's a going away, and I'll miss them terribly.

Kheeit.
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I'm Kit. I'm the girl kind of Kit.
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