Flash, Bam, Alakazam.

Friday, August 01, 2008

I was doing a Table of Contents for my Filipino portfolio. I thought I was done for the night, no, for the wee hours of the morning. I was so tired last night I put it off and set a 4:00 alarm.

I thought I could sleep, or if not, study, but now I'm here, breaking my own promises, sneaking away in the dead of the night, no, morning, just to tell you what's on my mind.

All this hullabaloo just because I felt, that some calendar, somewhere, would be telling me it was the first of August today.

Flash! There went two months of senior year.

What had I done, and what had I not done?

:)) Certainly I've had a lot of mess-ups.

I've had many learning experiences as well, my definition for my mistakes.

And how could I not count the victories in between?

Those two months passed was so full of everything I ever expected in life it feels like it's been a year.

Bam!

The MAPEH Production is done. I think it was brilliant, and whether or not I am biased is for you to guess.

Chinese exams later. Thank God Siensi's only giving an exam for two lessons, and that my lessons are for third graders. :)) God bless to everyone on that one.

I have no idea what miracle God will send me to complete studying my review sheets in time for Sunday without cramming at least 24 hours before the actual exam, but you see, He promised, and I'm just watching out. Anyone know where I can get a tutor at, um, 4:42 am, who can cover Trigo, Physics, Chemistry and be patient rolling off vocabulary while I jump around trying not to get a nosebleed??? If he/she can learn and take UPCAT for me, all the better...Crunch time!

I also have no idea how I can study for my other exams, Monday-Wednesday. I can't believe time was positioned so torturingly.

But no. Scratch that. What more can I ask when I get to go to church exactly before and after UPCAT? :D Showers of blessings, indeed.

ALAKAZAM!!!!!

Usually, the magic part comes there. Following suit, I'll tell you what magic is whisking away in the air.

I am at complete peace.

Despite the busy, hectic schedules. Despite the impossible workloads. Despite the heavy burdens, thunking down from every side.

Greater than willpower, greater than human desire, my God continues to uplift me to highs that I never deserved. You might be confused. What part of this rant tells you He is as faithful as I claim Him to be???

It is His promises. That He had taken care of me, takes care of me, and so He will take care for me. He purifies me, sometimes completely consumes, but He exalts. How can I explain how great His love covers me? It exceeds human speech.

How can I be brought down to failure, how can anything seem depressing? He redeems.

I don't sound like myself. You might not even want to listen.

That is because I have never been more grateful, never happier, never more fulfilled in my life, than in this moment, when everything seems to be unsure and dangerous ahead. Never have I felt more loved and blessed, than now when everyone is prone to leave and everything is fallible.

Thank Gooooooooood.